ASTRO PROBLEMS

The latter of these is probably the key issue, my inability to express myself and my emotions.

I am completely aware that I have a whole collage of problems and emotions that have contributed to my state of mind and turned it into an illness.

What I need to know is if any of this is reflected in my chart and if so whether there is any light shining for me. I am desperate to sort this all out and come to a satisfactory understanding of my life and all its aspects before I run out of strength completely.

Yours gratefully,

RR

Dear R.R.

Your letter is full of pain, and before I explain how your chart reflects the difficulties you describe and suggest any way forward, I need to say that I feel anything I can offer here is quite inadequate to realistically help you with the problems you describe. I would recommend you see someone for regular counselling, and I am sending you information on this, as the kind of issues you are describing need deeper attention than a letter can hope to help with.

A lot of the difficulties you are describing are signified astrologically by your Moon. This is in Gemini, a sign that particularly needs to communicate, yet in the Twelfth House, were one's feelings can overwhelm one's understanding. This is compounded by several square aspects to your moon and in particular the square from Pluto tends to damn up the emotions, making them inaccessible or bursting out, like a volcano that erupts intermittently. With the moon in the Twelfth House you are extremely sensitive to others and to their emotional states and easily get lost. You need times of solitude, on a regular basis, were you can sift through your own rather turbulent feelings. You need t o give yourself frequent “emotional processing” time. These times when you can be more introspective and reflective will serve you well in helping you to keep more in touch with how you are feeling, so that negative states do not accumulate to such proportions. Writing a private journal might be something you would find helpful as a way to begin understanding the powerful emotions you are the victim of.

The issues you describe are deeply rooted and will not be things you can change overnight. You have several planets in the Fourth House of your chart, many of them in square to your Moon. This may have meant you over identified with your mother's feelings as a child, you need to understand the nature of your parents' relationship and how this has affected you. Your background and roots are very important to you and as you understand more how they have shaped you, you will begin to feel more free of them. This is not to say they are all bad, just to say they are a complicated and powerful influence within your psyche.

The Sun in your chart is in Leo and this will describe a sunny optimistic side to your nature. The Sun is in square to Neptune and in trine to Saturn and these contacts could signify that you are easily undermined and have unrealistic expectations of yourself. This may contribute to your anxiety states. Anxiety and panic attacks can be an expression of deeply repressed feelings. It may be that the side of yourself that you are conscious of and identify with will just not accept other aspects of you that you judge in a harsh and negative way. Examining your relationship to your father may help you in unravelling how you get to demand so much of yourself on the first place.

For some time now Jupiter's position in the sky has been contacting Mars' position in your birth chart, expanding your anger and frustration and increasing your impatience to find a solution to your anguish. It is very much a ripe time to take action and it augers well that any action you take now will help.

At this time the planet Uranus is transiting your descendant, and this is the main indicator of the fact that you are seeking astrological help right now. It describes the you that wants to realise yourself and be free of your emotional difficulties. You are particularly open to new people and new ways of thinking and understanding. You are ready for your pattern of relating to go through a radical overhaul. Were you to begin therapy now I would expect it to make a major impact on your life very rapidly, I would say that it is a very good time to start.

As I said at the beginning, I am not able to do real justice to the depth of pain you describe in your letter, but I hope I have helped you to understand how you might begin to deal with the issues disturbing you.

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Dear Babs

I have recently separated from a woman with whom I lived for 5 years. It was not my first serious relationship so I have gone through a similar experience before.

I am quite confidant in my future and I believe I'm set for a certain amount of good fortune. My problem is I'm a creative person, art is my livelihood, but recently I have been unable to express myself creatively. It seems I've lost a certain confidence that I thought was solidly structured. This is affecting my career but is the only thing I want to put my energy into. If there is anything you can tell me from my chart I would be most grateful.

Thank you

W.S.

Dear W.S.

The Sun and ascendant in your chart are in Sagittarius, and this describes the confidence you have taken for granted up until now. There is a core of optimism within you, but you are perhaps more vulnerable to discouragement than you have realised. The Sun is contacting Mars, Uranus and Pluto in your chart which indicates someone who is highly original and who thrives to some extent to adversity. There is tremendous daring and audacity in this combination. You are likely to create situations that are threatening to you in some way, in order to prove to yourself your capacity to survive. While this is not directly related to the current difficulties you describe, it may be that you underestimate the amount of stress you are liable to subject yourself to, and the price you pay in terms of your sense of well-being.

Your Moon is in Taurus in the Fourth House, and this will describe a part of your nature that is resistant to change. Loyal and steadfast in your feelings, your sense of inner security is based on things remaining constant. This side of you contrasts to your more adventurous, freedom-orientated side. You may not easily recognise how much you are a creature of habit and how deeply you are distressed by any kind of upheaval.

I do not know why your relationship ended, but there will be a need to grieve your loss. This is a process that can take some time. You are likely to be very idealistic as far as relationships are concerned, and are vulnerable to feeling disappointed and disillusioned when they fail to fulfil your longings. Denying disappointment and loss could well leave you feeling ‘lost' in yourself and affect your creativity. This possibility is described by translating Pluto edging towards your Venus in Scorpio and already contacting your Fifth House Jupiter and your Eleventh House Neptune. Throughout this time your creative self-expression is likely to go through considerable changes, which will reflect your own inner changes. What you want from relationships will also be re-evaluated, and you may realise that you are more complicated and experience emotions more intensely than you had thought.

Transiting Uranus has been squaring your M.C./I.C. axis and will again from July through to November. This indicates a period of awakening with regard to your aspirations and goals in life and to the emergence of fresh understanding of your background, and how this has influenced you. The crises in your creativity may be an indicator to change direction. If you proceed in the same direction you may discover a new attitude to what you are doing. Your motto could be to expect the unexpected, especially as far as your career in concerned, and to allow yourself to be guided by your intuition.